{"id":250,"date":"2006-02-02T21:45:34","date_gmt":"2006-02-03T02:45:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.alltrees.org\/Branch\/archive\/?p=250"},"modified":"2012-02-09T20:59:39","modified_gmt":"2012-02-10T01:59:39","slug":"if-i-should-wake-before-i-die-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.branchandroot.net\/archive\/2006\/02\/if-i-should-wake-before-i-die-3\/","title":{"rendered":"If I Should Wake Before I Die #3"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Dust puffed up as Cloud drove the sword into the ground.<\/p>\n<p>It took him a moment to pull his hand away from the hilt, and then he stood      just staring at it. His new sword was an excellent one, but this&#8230; this      was Zack&#8217;s sword.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Which is why you have no right to use it, idiot,&#8221; Cloud muttered      to himself, slumping down to sit beside it. His hand still stole back out      to touch the blade.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re going to cut yourself, playing around like that. Don&#8217;t you know better,      by now?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud surged halfway to his feet, only to fall back with a thump, staring.      He had to swallow a few times before he found his voice; when he did it      was hoarse. &#8220;Zack?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>On the other side of the sword, Zack put his hands on his hips and grinned.      &#8220;In the flesh.&#8221; After a considering pause he added, &#8220;Only not, of course.&#8221;      He looked down the length of his body with a critical expression. &#8220;She&#8217;s      right, this really does take it out of you. We should make this quick.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud bowed his head, dozens of childhood whispers dinning in his ears. Something      left undone could hold a spirit to the world; and surely someone like Zack      had had hundreds of things left undone, and now he couldn&#8217;t rest, and it      was entirely Cloud&#8217;s fault. &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry,&#8221; he whispered.<\/p>\n<p>Zack sounded startled. &#8220;What for?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;If you can&#8217;t move on&#8230; I&#8230;&#8221; Cloud stared down at the dust. &#8220;It&#8217;s my fault.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There was a sigh and then a small thud, and Zack was sitting beside him. &#8220;I      realize it may be hard to believe after the past couple months, but, honest,      not everything in the world hinges on you personally.&#8221; Zack sounded patient,      now, and Cloud&#8217;s head sank a little lower.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know that,&#8221; he protested. &#8220;But&#8230;&#8221; He looked up and couldn&#8217;t get another      word out in face of the wry smile Zack wore.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Let me guess. You think you got me killed.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud might have been out of it at the time, but he remembered enough to be      very clear about the fact that he <em>had<\/em> gotten Zack killed. Since      Zack obviously didn&#8217;t agree, though, he shrugged and looked away. &#8220;It isn&#8217;t      just that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Zack leaned back on his hands. &#8220;So what is it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud raked a smudged hand through his hair, embarrassed and guilty, and a      little annoyed that Zack was going to make him say it out loud. &#8220;Damn      it, Zack, I was pretending to be you! Claiming to be you!&#8221; A glint      off the sword caught Cloud&#8217;s eye and he slumped again, muttering, &#8220;Running      around, waving your sword, telling everyone I was a SOLDIER First Class,      and used to be Sephiroth&#8217;s friend, and&#8230;&#8221; The sheer humiliation of      it choked him. &#8220;You can&#8217;t possibly      tell me you aren&#8217;t pissed off about that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Sure I can.&#8221; Zack chuckled as Cloud&#8217;s head whipped up to stare at him. &#8220;Cloud,      you idiot, you were sicker with transition than anyone else I&#8217;ve ever seen,      and by the time you could put two words together in a row all the physical      evidence and memories you had pointed to you being me. Why should I be mad      at <em>you<\/em> about that?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud opened his mouth and closed it again, nonplussed by this attack of logic.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Besides,&#8221; Zack crossed his ankles comfortably, &#8220;you did a       good job of being me. Saved the world and everything.&#8221; He smiled      at Cloud, eyes sparkling behind the glow. &#8220;I&#8217;m not mad. I&#8217;m actually      pretty damn proud of you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud&#8217;s chest suddenly felt light and shaky, and he swallowed against a hot      tightness in his throat. &#8220;Zack&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I mean, look at how well you turned out. You <em>are<\/em> First Class,      now, my friend.&#8221;   Just as Cloud thought he might have to look away      or cry, the sparkle turned into a gleam. &#8220;Of course, some things never change.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud yelped as Zack tackled him into the dust and glared up at his captor.      &#8220;Zack!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Zack grinned down at him. &#8220;Too much seriousness is bad for you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Cloud&#8217;s eyes narrowed and he growled. He remembered that line. And, while      he might have gotten pummeled like a little kid three or four years ago,      things damn well <em>had<\/em> changed, now. He twisted and heaved, and bared      his teeth in a grin of his own when it actually worked and dumped Zack off      him. He dove after.<\/p>\n<p>They thrashed back and forth though the rising clouds of yellow until Zack      finally got his weight over Cloud&#8217;s hips and both Cloud&#8217;s hands in a good      grip. By then they were both out of breath and laughing.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going to win next time,&#8221; Cloud declared, wriggling his wrists to test      Zack&#8217;s grip.<\/p>\n<p>And it did loosen for a second, but in an odd way. Cloud frowned. He frowned      more when Zack muttered, &#8220;Aw, hell.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What? Zack? What is it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The smile he got this time was a little more crooked than normal. &#8220;Just      reality catching up with us again.&#8221; Before Cloud could ask what he      meant, Zack shook him a little. &#8220;Listen. It wasn&#8217;t your fault, Cloud.      And I&#8217;m still here. Remember.&#8221;      His expression turned considering. &#8220;Actually&#8230; why don&#8217;t I make sure      of that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Just as Cloud&#8217;s brain was starting to catch up to who and where they      were and what must be happening, Zack swooped down and kissed him.     Cloud&#8217;s      brain hit the pause button again.<\/p>\n<p>Zack&#8217;s lips were gritty and his mouth tasted of dust. And then it was just      warm, and wet, and the soft pressure of Zack&#8217;s tongue searching his mouth.<\/p>\n<p>And then it was nothing.<\/p>\n<p>Cloud lay, staring up at the sky, quite alone on the bluff except for the      sword.  &#8220;Damn it, Zack,&#8221; he whispered, hearing his own voice shake. &#8220;I      demand a rematch.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>A short gust of wind ruffled his hair like an affectionate hand.<\/p>\n<p><strong>End  <\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A bit after game-end, Cloud broods over Zack&#8217;s sword and gets a visitor. <span class=\"summary-meta\">Romance with Angst, I-3<\/span><\/p>\n<blockquote class=\"teaser\">\n<p>&#8220;Cloud, you idiot, you were sicker with transition than anyone else I&#8217;ve ever seen, and by the time you could put two words together in a row all the physical evidence and memories you had pointed to you being me. 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